ballad of the broken

by If I Could Kill Myself

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Joseph Parker I found this while finally looking into DSBM and thought it was laughable and immediately was turned off by the vocals. Now that I have warmed up to Ghost Bath, however, there are some really surprising and truly awesome moments on this recording. I get it now.
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Lordarticus First off, This feels like a solo-project That being said i really enjoy the vibe this puts out, DSBM executed beautifully. However the production is really amateur and some annoying audio peaking is involved.

Totally worth supporting but i feel the next album will IICKM's true entry to the world. Favorite track: escapism or death.
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They tell us that suicide is the greatest piece of cowardice... that suicide is wrong; when it is quite obvious that there is nothing in the world to which every man has a more unassailable title than to his own life and person.

Writers are twice as likely to commit suicide.

Authors are almost twice as likely to commit suicide as the general population.

Bipolar disorder is the only diagnosis found to be more prevalent in people with creativity-based careers.

It’s well established from psychological research that there is a link between fame and suicide.

Psychological thinking is swinging towards a new idea - there could be an aspect of personality which drives particular people to become eminent, which is the very same factor that also elevates chances of suicide.

Is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.

I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I’ve a call."


released February 3, 2017

written, recorded, and performed by: IICKM



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Track Name: again
i hate myself
Track Name: only regret
i hate myself
Track Name: coward
i hate myself
Track Name: escapism or death
i hate myself
Track Name: ballad of the broken
i hate myself
Track Name: im just not worth it
i hate myself
Track Name: to be forgotten
i hate myself
Track Name: i hate myself
i hate myself
Track Name: last chance
i hate myself
Track Name: goodbye
i hate myself